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It’s been a month……

Since then many things have come to pass. I am, as of now, the same person, I used to be. I have inside me the same silliness, and hopefully the same madness. I thought that this new life, as a consultant in an MNC firm, would bring about a change. It’s been a month…….and I see, the same silly me.

Not that I desired a change, but there could have been some, there should have been some.
For instance, I knew that my initial training was to be in my hometown. But my final posting could’ve been elsewhere. And unlike most of my friends from college, I was not dead against it.

I’ve always been somewhat of an introvert, not very outspoken in the least. They could’ve placed me in S.A.P. It would’ve required me to pack my bags every now and then and set out in cross-country sojourns. That could’ve been something new, some change.
But I was placed in F.T.S instead. I do not rue that because forensics has its charms but then again…… (you know what)….

If I’ve ever hated something in life, it is normalcy. And believe me I do everything so that it spares me. It was not easy. It took a lot out of me at times. But I must confess that I always had the reigns in my hand, that not for once did I loose control. Though sometimes I had people thinking otherwise [winks].
Now, as then, the task is difficult. There is too much discipline around, too many restrictive forces at play. I have no issues with them. But I wish chaos. Well disciplined chaos, just a bit of it. For I’ve always believed that chaos was a necessary evil.

P.S. A solemn request. Do not read too much between the lines. “No work and no play” is gravely irritating, and I am human after all. Sometimes it is wise to succumb to the charms of boredom. This post is a byproduct of that and that alone. Maybe I shall be in a better mood next time around.